"Holy crap Im nineteen!"This was the first thought in my head at 12am on 13th august. It started off with my Cassie friends wishing me and sending me edited pictures of Yunho.

Oh the trauma! [begum mein agaya: Honey,Im home]

Then a person who I have been friends with since I was 12 called me and sang Happy Birthday to me on his guitar and I was like kfbakfrhalkbra TT_TT. My facebook was flooded with wishes as was my cellphone inbox. Then I opened asianfanfics to find birthday wishes aswell. Thankyou by the way :D. Also,someone Ive been friends with for the past 4 years made a video for me and I actually burst into tears while I watched it [Oh the lovee!] She was like "Unnieee!! why are you crying!?" Im like "Dongsaenggieee...yah...!! *hysterical tears*"

Well I had my result on the 13th but I picked it up today...I have an A* in Business Studies [my majoring field] and B's in Accelerated Sociology, Maths[despite leaving 16 marks] and English Language [TT_TT]. Its not that bad of a result. I wanted straight A's but the CIE had announced that this year they wouldnt be giving many A's and I knew I gave it my best so I wasnt disappointed. I did what I could =]

Le birthday girl. Lets just say I couldnt recognize myself when I looked in the mirror after getting ready. I dunno,I think I suddenly realized that I grew up. I looked more mature o.0 I had to add the black outline cuz I dont want you guys to see my cluttered desk in the BG XD

I went out with my friends to a place that is by the sea. It was alot of fun. :D. I got to see my friends after a really long time. Funny thing,on the 12th,around 4pm..my bestfriends surprised me. I had been sleeping and in my PJ's...not to mention I had oil in my hair. I opened the door of my room to find them standing their screaming "SURPRISE!" I shrieked and slammed the door in their face  O__O Quickest shower I have ever taken xD

Starting a new year in your life is indeed a scary prospect. I guess Im somewhere between being a teenager and a grown woman. Its a weird feeling. Its like,you want to grow up...but at the same time..you dont. In my heart,I'll always be my daddy's little girl but on the outside...I know I have to be the mature woman that I am expected to become. Ive learned so much in my life. Indeed,I'll be honest...my life has NOT been easy. Ive had people push me down and try to break me,Ive been disregarded as someone who just picks a fight,Ive been dumped and cast aside by someone I called my bestfriend. I lost someone I never thought I would lose. And yet,on the whole...I think I turned out pretty okay. Based on whatever I had to live through...I could have been a pot addict...but instead,I kept my head high and worked hard to prove everyone who ever doubted me,wrong! And I have.

My favourite quotation is "No one can make you feel inferior without your consent-Eleanor Roosevelt." I really do apply it to my daily life which is probably why Im so blunt and straightforward. Amongst the many things Ive learned,one of those are what my Nana used to say which was that the tree bearing the most fruit hangs low while a fruitless tree stands erect and proud. My parents have said this many times and I never really understood what it meant till a few years ago. It means that the one that is gifted,need not show it off to the world like the one that is not. It always important to be humble even when you have all the right in the world to be proud.  I would like to share a poem that I read when I was very young [whilst everyone else was looking up the meaning of 's' and '']...and I remember it word by word. If you ever want to know the kind of person I am...this poem best describes the values that I live by:

IF you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you,
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too;
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or being lied about, don't deal in lies,
Or being hated, don't give way to hating,
And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise:

If you can dream - and not make dreams your master;
If you can think - and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two impostors just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,
And stoop and build 'em up with worn-out tools:

If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breathe a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: 'Hold on!'

If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
' Or walk with Kings - nor lose the common touch,
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you,
If all men count with you, but none too much;
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds' worth of distance run,
Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,
And - which is more - you'll be a Man, my son!

IF--Rudyard Kipling

Im not trying to show off or anything...this is really how I look at the world and those who know me would agree. Ive seen alot of the world and Ive learned alot through my experiences...so I begin another year and I hope with all my heart,that its an amazing one. Im not about to give up on my dreams because I want to make my own future. I still have alot to learn,alot to do so to my 20 year old self..."Did you live your life the way you wanted to?"

So I should wrap this up now.  Here is me cam- as usual....am I korean yet Yunnie? TT_TT [YH:...just hurry up and get your fat here so I can squish you in my y arms and hairy armpits right into my fleshy manboobs]

Hera~