not a day passes that I don't listen to any dong bang song. It has been part of my life since I started being a Cassie. My day is incomplete without hearing their voices together. But ever since a week ago, I began to cry everytime I do listen to their songs. As weird as this may sound but I cried like a child while watching dbsk's mv of Balloons.

Seriously! I cried while watching a (suppossed to be) happy song.

Depression has begun to take over me. Every minute closer to the announcement of the final verdict (which is tomorrow) my heart tightens bit by bit. I love DBSK to death and there is nothing I want more than to see all five of them standing together on one stage. I miss them so bad that it hurts. Gosh, I can't believe I'm crying while writing this. Aaagh! My tears can't seem to stop flowing.

*sigh* as much my Cassie heart wants to see them together, I also wish for the nullification of JYJ's contract with SM. It is no secret to us that they really were unfair to our boys. Gosh! This really hurts like hell! 

I am unable to continue writing because of this overwhelming wave of emotions I am feeling. 

I am thankful to have known DONG BANG SHIN KI. I am sad that they are now apart. I am torn knowing that there is a chance that these boys may never come back as five. Just thinking of it breaks me to pieces. 

My ultimate fear is that I might be unable to update my fiction. I love "finding happiness" but how in the world will I be able to update it with all the raging emotions? :(

As a Cassie, a fan, an admirer and a listener there is nothing more I can do but to wish for each one of them the best because they deserve it. I wish for them to be happy. But the thing I wish for the most is that they be able to patch things up even just as friends.

I love DBSK and I BELIEVE in DBSK.

Whatever happens; come what may I will always and forever LOVE, WORSHIP AND RESPECT the Rising Gods of the east.

I will continue to...

ALWAYS KEEP THE FAITH <3 and wish for the best.. :"(

-SuKi- and JOcyclesAKTF  Thank you.. :) I'm glad there are people who understand how I feel. I feel better that I am able to share how I feel with you..