. . . . . . . . . . . . .

I have no happy greetings today.

School started. I just.... *sigh*

I'm gonna ramble a lot, by the way. I just need to get it out somewhere, somehow and I just decided to write.

Okay so anyways.... School is here already. Senior year. Yeah.

My school starts at 7 AM. Yes, 7 freaking AM. From Monday - Saturday. Yes, until Saturday.

Usually, on Monday - Thursday school ends at 1.30 PM, Friday ends at 12.45 PM + extracurricular activities, Saturday ends at 11 AM + extracurricular activities. Extracurricular activities you can choose either on Friday or Saturday. We have 15 minutes breaks at 9.15 AM and 11 AM, so total of recess is only 30 minutes. We have 45 minutes for each subjects and sometimes one subject can take 90 minutes. We don't have little breaks in between classes, just so you know.

But we got information that the schedule will change this year.

No classes on Saturdays!

Yay?

NO!

On Tuesdays and Thursdays we will can go home at 2.15PM while the other days we can go home at 1.30PM. Since we won't have classes on Saturdays, they added the school time on weekdays. But that doesn't mean we can stay home on Saturdays. We still have to go to school doing who knows what! For extracurricular activity and other non-academic stuff, they said.

I honestly rather have classes on Saturdays and keep the original schedules.

I mean, come on. We have to go home later on weekdays and still go to school on Saturdays? What's the point of going home later on the weekdays?!

And the next issue is : the minimum score for each subjects got higher.

75 out of 100

That's the minimum. And God, I'm not even joking here, to get a 75 is hard. I almost didn't make it last year because of Economics and Accounting (it's joint) and it was only 70 as the minimum. Last year not all the subjects' minimum score are 75. Some are 70, still reasonable. But now... It's 75. I really have to beat my own just to make it to 75.

And as if adding salt to a wound, my homeroom teacher? He's the Economics-Accounting teacher. The teacher I absolutely despised the most who teaches the subjects I cant even stand. And him being my homeroom teacher means every Monday, I will have his subject for 90 minutes as the first two subjects.

I have the National Exams next year, along with the usual school exams, practical exams although it's not too much since I take the Social stream, probably the university entance exams. I have to think of where I have to go since I won't be studying in my country for university, I have to think of what I have to take as a major. The exams consists of the things I've been studying for the last 3 years.

It's just so overwhelming.

And it's only the first day of school.

Now I'm really thinking about how stupid I've been for not taking so many opportunities of getting out of this hell hole. I missed 2 great chances. I don't even know why I gave up on them. Not confident enough is probably the reason. I was so scared of getting out there, I didn't think about how I'd be when I go back to this same school.

I just...

*sigh*

I couldn't care less if you think I'm exaggerating my feelings, but to me it's just straining me and really burdening me.

I'm sorry if you're scoffing right now and saying that you've had worse schools than mine but as I said earlier, to me this is tough.

You want the truth? I'm sad. Yeah, I'm not even kidding.

I'm overwhelmed. In possibly the worst way ever.

I don't know what to feel anymore...

So... Yeah. That's all the rants I have for today.

I have more devastating news but I'll leave that for another day.

The good thing about today is that my friend gave me an EOS Tangerine Lip Balm. That's good, right?

OTL *rolls around and cries at the corner of the room*

phiiee signing out.