The Truth About the Ultimate Bias
I found this out the hard way. Believe me but now I’m pretty darn sure that no matter what happens, no matter how many times I doubt myself, I’ll always go back to the beginning.
Your ultimate bias is your ultimate for a reason. You can’t just change. Even if you lost your way, you will always find that at the end of the road, it will be that ultimate bias that is there, waiting for you.
For the longest time after EXO’s debut, I started to really like Kris. I started to find fault in Hyukjae and I felt as if my entire world was going to be blown apart. I caused controversy, had friends yell at me, had strangers be disappointed, when I wanted to change.
But now, it took all this to have me finally realize that I can’t change.
Maybe it’s a shallow reason and it took their comeback for me to truly once more embrace how much of an ELF I was and how dedicated I was. But the moment I got wind of Super Junior’s comeback, all my other feels for my other groups faded. They didn’t disappear completely, but they subsided and became irrelevant to everything SuJu.
And the same goes for my bias. I cried when I saw Hyukjae’s teaser photo. I felt this urge to protect him, to make sure that this comeback was the best ever. (Even though this will be my mentality every comeback).
But I finally learned to embrace his faults and to realize that he’s still just as perfect.
And so the truth about the ultimate bias is that no matter how much you think you can change, in the end, you can’t. You can’t because of the tears you’ve shed over them. You can’t because of all the love you find yourself once more pouring into them. You can’t because you just… can’t.
The ultimate bias doesn’t require justification. He just is.
And Hyukjae, for me, you just are.
♥
crying now. ♥
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