A friend of mine, this is Ari (just realized that mistake in typing), just passed away after a very bad wreck tonight. I haven't talked to her since the beginning of the school year and we clashed a lot but we had been close in freshmen year, and she was still like a sister at times to me. I didn't approve of a lot of her life choices but then again I don't agree with a lot of my friends and their choices. I will miss her and I wish that we could have mended things....it's made even more horrible by the fact that just today I saw another one of my friends I haven't talked in forever and we were talking about meeting up to hang out because we never saw eachother. It reminded me that there are other friends I needed to check up on, Tay being one of them...now I can't do that. another thing I realized tonight is as follows, I wrote it right after I got the news....and the more I think about it, the more true and hearbreakingly so it is.

It's amazing the things in this world that we don't realize we have until it's to late, the friends we take for granted, the moments we don't charish until the people who cause them are gone. There are many different truths in the world and some of them are less then kind, such as the truth that no matter how much we like to say we live our lives fully and without regret...we don't. It isn't possible for a human being to live that sort of life, why? because people think to much...we worry to much, and when we aren't worrying there is something else going on. Our motions get in the way, because we get mad, busy, bored, preocupied, and we don't spend every moment we can with everyone we can. So when someone we love passes or moves on or disappears from our lives we regret not spending more time with them. There aren't enough hours in the day, or days in the year, for us to NOT regret something or someone we have lost. It's a cold hard truth, something unchangeable...we will NEVER regret knowing a person we love, but we will ALWAYS regret them leaving us and the fact that we didn't spend more time with them.