I take a deep breath and inhales the cool air.. I want to wake from this horrible nightmare and probably start to be myself again...

I want to wake up every like usual and goes on with my life and probably living my life like i how i used too..

I am asking forgiveness to myself and my dear dongsaeng for being a crying baby for the past weeks and i want to shed my last tear away so I can smile again.. the horribble tugging things still exist in my chest but i would try my best to ignore and i would be writing again starting this week...

Thanks dongsaeng for being a nagging ahjumma for me.. if it wasn't you .. i would go zombie around..

I am trying to smile again and put all the pieces of my life back to the places..

and i am going to keep my promise and write that story my dongsaeng ask for few month ago..

Yepp I am going to wrote another story.. this time co authored by my dongsaeng and she would give all the ideas and i would write.. that would be horrible though cause even if i can write my grammar is still bad...

I promise i would try to update Gift and The Only Exception by the end of this week,,,okay

To CLei unnie.. I miss you..

and my other unnie too....

i am going to  haunt aff back..... and i am going to read a lot of updates that i missed for the past few weeek...

thanks few guys out there who's willing to drop by and gave soothing advice and i wannna tell you i would take all the advices..

I am going to smile again..

I am going to laugh again and i am going to hope again...

Yes.. I am going to do all of it...