Bullying past

 

I was a bullying victim since I was 6 until I was 11. Those were the most hurtful years of my life. I still can remember the time a girl aproched to me saying my hair was really nice and took some of my hair with her hands...After I could even react, part of my hair was gone. My classmates used to treat me like and I even changed school, not to escape though...The thing hurt me the most was I felt A COWARD. So I took some time away...I pulled myself toghether again and grew stronger. I got a lot of problems the first year because of my bullying past, at the begining I was scared of every new person in the school and tried to be gentle with them but soon...I was too used to their treats and I started to acting defensive. Fighting for no reason, got suspended lot of times...After that my OWN MOM told me: " You'll never get friends if you act in that way" And that actually made me feel sad... The second year I was depresive. I tought in 1093811298371 different ways of killing my self, I was locked in my room all the time, seeing anime and eating snacks...But then I started to listen k-pop and...I really loved it. After two or three months I started to do the thing I would never do...Dancing (PD: My dream since I was born almost, Is to be a singer but at that time I wasn't self confident enough no even think of it). At first I really alskdjañlkdjañlksdjñ But then I met some people ant those persons introduced me to other people and I met my best friend. I met other people too and they broke my heart but I had my friend, I started going out to dance and and entered in a group...I started talking with my classmates...And started to believe I could accomplish everything If I really wanted to.

There's this author (I don't know how to put the blue-thing in names) Elisaexplosive, I've reading her stories and it reminded myself in the past...Now I look behind I can see everything clearly it doesn't hurt anymore. Now I can believe in the impossibles because I'm sure you can rach everyhting you want if you want it BAAAAAAAAAAADLY.

ElisaExplosive: Thank you...I actually stopped avoiding the past and I can finally let it go.

Nowadays I'm learning dance, I know 5 languages, I loose  A LOT of weight (But still theres a little left alskñdj), I learned seep rap,  I learned acting and modeling and next year I'm going to try and audition to the korean entertainment industry.

I really wanted to share my story here so maybe some girl/boy in a random place in the world can find the strenght to fight back and STAND Up for what he/ or she believes. 

THANK YOU :D

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elisaexplosive #1
Oh my God, I'm so emotional right now!
I'm really happy for you that you grew stronger and that you can connect with my stories. It means a lot to me and gives me a reason to go on with what I'm doing.
So, thank YOU for sharing this!