it's been a long time, heh, buddy? So yeah... I'm not sure about it but... wait, okay, of course I'm sure but.. I just don't know anymore

(what the hell am I rambling about?)

there's this heavy load in my chest, I really feel like crying if I could but I can't... should I watch hello ghost just so I can cry? (I always watch that movie when I want to cry)

there's this unsettling feelings, I'm not sure how to get it off of my chest...

damn, I'm sure you regret opening this page... :p