Tired of the fact that I can only watch you from afar. Tired of the fact that I can only dream of you. Tired of the fact that the feeling I had is not love.

Hate the fact that neither of you knew me. Hated the fact that only picture of you were all I have. Hated the fact that neither of us were in love.

Scared to admit that you didn't knew me. Scared to even give the slight detail of me. Scared, knowing you'll treat me like how you treat others.

I tried doing things I know I can't. I tried to reach your expactations. I tried being someone I didn't even know, just for you to notice me.

Mad at myself for not being the one you wanted me to be. Mad at myself for being so out of your dream girl. Mad at myself, knowing you wouldn't even care if I even reached your expactations.

This day will pass by like other days but, today is different. I'd lift a big burden from my shoulders. I'd make my day a little different even with the slightest details.

Not going to reveal anything, just gonna sit here and write. Not going to say anything, just gonna type down all the things I felt. Not going to show any expressions, with a simple look in the eyes everyone would know what I feel.

Here I am again today, typing all my burden away. Here I am again today, for the first time a tear felt. Here I am again today, looking at your pictures with a forced smile.

All the things I want will go like the wind blew. All the things I want will go like the wave of the ocean. All the thing I want will never be held by me.