Oppression

It has been a while, isn't it?

Recently, I have been at a lost for words. My heart, mind and soul unable to function well. Thus, there were many things left uncompleted. Today is the first day, the very first one. I sat in front of my laptop and tried my best to continue writing my fiction. Today is the first day in a long while ever since I encounter my writer blocks. My mind is blank of ideas and inspiration. Yet I tried my best to write more and more.

이별 넌 쉽니

( I Hate You) (I Miss You) man, I do feel so sorry, ‘bout to say something what -uh

너무 뻔해 모두 대충 그러려니 항상 쉽게 우리만의

사랑을 입술에 담고 오르고 내리니

나란 사람으로 인해 벌써 많은 상처를 받은 너에게

그러니 어떻게 이별의 통보를 너에게 빨리 말하라는거니?

읽으려고 했던 책을 몇 페이지 넘기지 못하고

이제 막 시작한 사랑은 추억보다 빨리 이별을 만나고 니 생각대로 그 모든 잘못을 탓해도 난 할말이 없어

기억이 없으면 좋겠다는 말에 더 이상 대꾸도 못하겠어 연예인이 하는 사랑.. 다 그런거지

Heartquake. At 6 am, my alarm snoozed. The ringtone reached my audible range. Annoyed, I get up from my slumber since the alarm continue to snooze. I opened my eyes slowly adjusting to the amount of light that my eyes consumed. I looked around and found my best friend, eh no, my other half sitting at the end of the bed. I threw my pillow at him but, the figure slowly started to disappear away. Leaving me alone dumbfounded. Just then I realized it was solely my hallucination only.

I need to isolate myself.

These days, I miss him so much.

My heart feel troubled, so much to the extent I want to scream, yell and throw things. But I won't. Why? Because I'm not going to give him the satisfaction of breaking me completely. The world went on around me. The pregnant of silence and stillness sheathed me in nothing but my own thoughts, memories that tortured my soul and glazed my mind. My heart, already shattered and scattered over the disappeared figure, felt nothing, heard nothing anymore. There were only the memories, the faded scents, the forgotten whispers of touch over my face and the ghost of a kiss on my lips.

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