This might be my forward to one of my stories...thoughts?

what would i change if i could turn back the hours?
would i decide to tell myself
don't sit there,
don't walk there,
don't be there?

just so i miss the chance of meeting you?

or do i tell myself,
what everyone else has told me?
to give it up,
its not worth the fight,
someone can come in,
and take a place, i've never been in.
then they turn around and tell me,
that if they couldn't get anything neither will i.

sayin that i'm wasting my time on someone who will never think that way.

but i've wasted so much time already,
i know what its like to wait for something that doesn't happen.
i've waited years for tim,
and when we finally could be somewhere,
it disappeared.

yea,
i guess i'm afraid,
i'm afraid i can't be something i'm not.
i'm tired of chasing,
for once in my life,
someone come chase me.