lonliness is a strange emotion,
one that can appear from nowhere.
or one that can settle in you
and when you least expect it
to erupt.

it also is formed in the most strangest way
it can be created with a loss,
or an isolation,
or it can just be uncertainty mixed with confusion.

if there was a medical cure,
i would've taken it.
if it was a medical disease,
the number of people having it
would be pandemonic.

but it sits in the tinest parts of the heart,
to stew, like a pot,
slowly being brought to a boil.
and when it boils, you lose more then sanity,
you lose faith, hope and sometimes love.

if i had to do it all again,
would i?
if i had the chance to write the wrongs
could i?
those are questions i can no longer ask myself,
questions that will never have an answer..
there will always be a choice to make and consequences to that choice,
but i was a choice, your choice, nevertheless.

if you came to me now,
telling me that you were wrong,
or in 5 years, 10 even.
i would reply you the same,
'sorries, apologies, are considered and forgiven by those who care,
i care no more. '

and i don't.
with my heart it broke,
and the dragon of lonliness deep within,
at times springs forth,
but i can battle this dragon now.
i've been alone once before,
and being alone agin isn't that hard.

thank you for your kindness,
for your gentleness
for your strength,
for your words of wisdom.

I wrote this a while ago and it got me thinking of a story, what exactly its gonna be about I don't know yet LOL