Its been days and nights...Memories of you linger in my mind every single night.Call me obsess or whatever but I just can't handle it.But,what I'm going to write next is what I really think of you.

Dear R,you are the first guy that I had a crush on.I was too young to know why I have that feeling even though I know you give me alot of pain.Endless pain in my life.I guess its just a process in life where you'll have this feeling.When I heard your song,it reminded me of how you sang it in class and how you performed it in front of all of us.When certain moments reminded me of you,I just wish that you are the one creating it again.I am aware that you dislike me.I'm not like the girls you like but hey,I'm not asking you to like me.I'm glad that you give me pain so that I will not try to trust other people.Thanks to you,I become a coward and a person that has a low self-esteem.

Dear A,when you first enter my class,all I can say that you are different.We are not close in your first year in my class but we gotten close in the 2nd year.You sat behind me and talked to me.This is when I get a lil feeling towards you.I never show it to other people but our friends as usual,keep on teasing us even though there was nothing between us.In our 3rd year together in a class,we barely talked to each other.I'm quite okay with it because this is when I realise that you like my friend.I was dissapointed when I heard it came out from my other friends.It just became real.When we were taking our results last year,you are the only one that asked me how much I get among other people.You could just search my name at the notice board but no,you asked me personally.And in this year,we were listed in the same class again.I was happy that you'll be in the same class cause if not,I'll miss your antics.This year,you're making me confuse.That day when there was a problem with our Physics group,you looked at me and try to see if I was okay.I'm the leader so our teacher will aim me.I was pretty upset.After that,it was Chemistry.You came to me and explained what others thought of the incident and basically,they are pointing their fingers to me.When I heard this,my eyes started to become red.You saw my state and asked me if there is anything you can do to make me happy.You even wanted to dance for me and sing for me in the Chemistry lab,not caring if teacher is there.When you asked me that question,all I want you to do is be mine and only mine.Stop waiting for my friend and be with me.But I know its wrong.I realise this and I've made my decision to not think of you and wanting you anymore.This doesn't mean that I don't have any feelings for you but I'm tired of being someone unwanted.You should just go on chasing her cause she is way better than me.

Dear E,I never thought you'll be appearing in my life.You are younger than me and yet you make me smile that day.We are so alike..slapping ..and the best part..slapping people for no reason.I bet you have no idea how to pronounce my name since we just met 3 times.On the 3rd time meeting ,you were the cameraman for the day.The first person I saw was you on that day.Carrying the camera,getting your friends shot and busy yourself with your own performance.Its quite fun observing you..how you walk,the way you talk to your friends..especially the way you played the guitar.At the end of that day,you talked to me.I was happy that you remember me.We barely talk since you are my junior.I was really happy even thought our talk was only for a minute.You really lighted up my day that day.

R.A.E. You made my world colorful :)