People, please, tell me to get down to my work..

I have my first state exam in two weeks, one thing I know that those exams will doom (or not) my future. 

What I worry about the most is that my history exam isn't going to be the easiest one. I was never a good student, I am lazy as , and here I have 12 year-long-course to pack into my tiny head. And it's not the worst, what frightens me is than I am sitting and doing nothing!

In order to study I promised myself not to go out this month. And guess what. yesterday I went to accustic concert, then got stoned and went to a night club,of course I didn't wake up in the morning so now I have even less time to study. Ususally I don't worry about my studeis but now... Dude.... Today's mother's day and I didn't go to see my granma because I was 'studying' . NOT! I caught myself doing weird things just to keep away from serious stuff. I had been sunbathing for almost two hours, then I listened to the music and read some ff and listened to some more music and ate and now I'm writing this! 

What a lazy person I am... I pity myself. 

I blame nice spring weather!