What am I supposed to do?

When I can only watch from afar.

Your perfect, so beautiful… its impossible,  and almost imperfect.

Yet I know there is no such thing. 

Looking at you from afar. 

 

There is one think that is on my mind. 

Impossibility.

There is no reason to think this way. Feel this way. 

There is no way it can be. Let’s abandon all hope right now. 

If I have no reason… than why bother?

This feeling is so strong, its like nothing I’ve ever felt before. 

Its scary, yet so wonderful and different, yet strange.

 

You make me feel confused, and happy.

Like I don’t know what to do.

You make me feel safe, and you take my breath away.

Like meeting you for the first time all over again.

 

If it’s like this, than how can this be?

I wonder if you feel this too.

You must; this feeling I have is so strong. 

Yet it can’t be felt by anyone except myself?

If its like this, than why do I feel this way.

 

Is it possible?

 

But if it’s like this than I should know better. 

I should know that this is impossible. 

The way I feel does not matter.

The only thing that matters-if it is indeed like this…

than the only thing that matters is your happiness, 

and mine does not matter…

 

So I will watch from afar and protect you. I will let you be happy. 

I am only an Angel protecting you, my feelings do not matter. Nor does my happiness. It is no longer important. Only your love matters to me, even if it is  not for me.