*Warning- VERYYYYY LONG*

 

If any of you know me, you'll know that I LOVE Super Junior. Well, you dont even have to know me to know that, jist take a glance at my profile... Yeah, I'm a pretty hardcore ELF...

But what was my main fandom before i got into SuperJunior? (I'm talking boy groups- You all know 2NE1 will forever be the best ;D) 

I was a freaking devoted- V.I.P, otherwise known as a BigBang fangirl.

Not that I'm not a V.I.P anymore, but I feel like I've somewhat... betrayed my boys.

 

First, lemme give you a backstory to my introduction to k-pop:

The first k-pop song I've ever heard was Oh by SNSD. Even though I love it NOW, it was a COMPLETE turnoff to kpop for me back then. I thought it was the most ridiculous thing I ever heard!

But then my friend showed me BigBang's Haru Haru-- I FELL IN LOVE!

Literally!

I decided to get more into kpop, and now here I am, telling you lovely people about it ;)

so for about two years (of the three years I've known about kpop), I was an avid Bigbang fangirl- i bought a LOAD of merchandise (i still have them- 12 posters, a journal, a picture booklet, and I'm planning on getting socks ;D) and bought every album/song/mini album they released, even the old ones. I had even decided that my #1 bias was Seungri, the adorable, evil, y maknae. And I stuck with this for a long time!

But this is the downhill part.

During the latter part of 2011, as you know, Bigbang stopped promoting for a while to prepare for their next mini album (which i have and LOVE). So i thought, "Oh, its no problem. I'll just distract myself with 2ne1 ;D" That worked-- for not even half the time Bigbang was on 'hiatus'... Soooo I let myself wander off to other groups to help distract me. Before this, I had already become a Shinee, SNSD, and 4minute fan, but that wasnt enough to keep me entertained... (also a bunch of other groups that I dont feel like mentioning.)

I attempted using Shinee to distract me, but that didnt last long either because THEY went on hiatus too!! (but im good now because they made a comeback with Sherlock ;D) So i stumbled across Superjunior, who was currently promoting Mr. Simple.

Just like that, my fandom switched.

Kyuhyun became my bias instead of Seungri.

Yesung had my favorite voice instead of Daesung

Eunhyuk was the best dancer instead of Taeyang.

Leeteuk was the best leader instead of Gdragon

Donghae was the sweet yet y attractive one that could impregnate a woman with a mere stare instead of T.O.P

For apply stories, I started applying for Kyuhyun and Yesung instead of Seungri and Daesung (my previous #2 bias).

Instead of continuing the Bigbang story I had started writing (I never posted it, i just have it on my computer), I started a bunch of new Superjunior based stories.

I even considered taking down my Bigbang posters and replacing them with Suju... 

I even considered replacing my big Seungri solo poster with a poster of Kyuhyun......

its this Seungri poster

Of course, I never paid much attention to these changes-- Until Bigbang announced their comeback.

I saw GD, TOP, and Daesungs teaser photos, and i had them as my wallpaper (instead of Suju) for a while...until they released Taeyang and.... gulp... Seungri's teaser photos...

I swear to god I was getting emotional.

I remembered 'La la la', I remembered 'Lies', and I remembered everything up until 'Tonight'....

I realised how much i missed my Boys.

Last night i was listening to music in bed to help me fall asleep. My ipod was on shuffle in my 'kpop' playlist... lol.... and suddenly Haru Haru came on. I swear i havent listened to that song in FOREVER! and... I started to tear up.

I know, i sound stupid- like an overdramatic teenager who is just being an attention .

 

Shut the f*** up.

 

anyways, i teared up for a couple of reasons; 

1, I just remembered all the probaby millions of times i listened to that song the past couple tears, and how i always thought to myself, Bigbang is my #1 forever and ever.. and i broke my own promise

2, GD, i just realised, is a god damn musical genius. A prodigy, even. He ing WROTE that song. And the way he and the other members interpreted the song and performed it so beautifully, it brought tears to my eyes after watching the acoustic version.

3, Why Did i ever leave?? Bigbang's musical talent (no offense to my fellow ELFs here) surpasses Suju's by like.... quite a bit o_o...... Again, no offense to my fellow ELFs <3

4, That song is literally BEAUTIFUL. The message, the singing, the rapping, the video, the lyrics, the music, the harmony, the EVERYTHING! Its HANDS DOWN my favorite K-pop song.... if not my favorite overall song

 

Aishhhh I'm being so overdramatic T_T

Honestly, I'm being REALLY unlike myself right now.... so much its not even funny....

anyway, I'll continue anyway ;)

 

Soooooo on to my bias dillemma.

 

To almost every author who's stories I've applied for, you know I love Kyuhyun. Yeah, you know because I ALWAYS APPLY FOR HIM. If I don't, its only cuz SuperJunior isn't on the list of "available idols".

I applied for him so often because, well, he's my bias! Or.... WAS, possibly.

As I mentioned above, Seungri used to be my bias. I used to fangirl over him like CRAZY- I bought a POSTER of him, and I even attempted drawing him 0_o but failed... I started writing a Fanfic (I never posted it) about him and my OC, and i considered Seungri my 'husband to be'.

What happened?

BIGBANG WENT FREAKIN INACTIVE AND I LOST FREAKIN INTEREST BECAUSE I WAS FREAKIN BORED OF WATCHING OLD CLIPS!! i need NEW SEUNGRI MATERIAL!

But I had no patience, so thats where Kyu came. I love Kyuhyun because he has a gorgeous voice, adorably evil personality, not to mention he's VERY handsome ;)

But now that Bigbang's back, my Kyu-fangirling has been dying down.... and I've began fangirling over Ri-panda again :p

All day, I've had his VVIP album + Strong Baby (omgahhh y *-*) playing on REPEAT on my iPod. I fell in love with his voice al over again... and NOW I'm watching some new funny moments of his (from Runnign Man and Strong Heart etc etc)and remembering once again why I was such a major Seungri fangirl ;)

Sooooo after writing that load of self conflict, I'll just give you an overview of my point here.

I never stopped being a V.I.P, and Seungri never truly stopped being my bias. Super Junior and KYuhyun were perfect for keeping me interested until Bigbang returned, so I'm still an ELF, but I'm BACK, FELLOW V.I.Ps!!!!! 

Nyeahhh my main (boygroup) fandom is, once again, V.I.P :)

 

THanks for readin all that, yo

If you actually read it all, please know that I sincerely love you <3 If a situation like this has ever happened to you, please comment ;)

 

PLEASEPLEASEPLEASE don't start thinking of me as an overdramatic, stupid fangirl. I'm not. Really. Its just this ONE time....