If I am that person i used to be last month.. I am going to shoot myself..

for crying for him.. but he's become that only person in my heart and I don't know why am i so weak right now...

He should be proud for being the first guy i cried for.. he is the first guy that I cry in front of him to...

I had no one that i can talk to right now..

Crying and crying won't do nothing for me.. I know that only i can solve it but i don't how to start without breaking down in front of everyone...

the last time i had a breakdown last year.. i skipped class for 5 days and stop talking... crying in my room alone.. its pathetic.. and i hate it when everyone only get pity with me and told me something that won't even sooth my broken heart..

they don't even understand it and talk rubbish to me about how i shouldn't act like that if I am a mature person..
I am not a person like that.. I am just weak inside.. n feeling are hard to be control...