Hello guys. I--I'm really sorry. I can't update tonight, neither tomorrow. Not only am I suffering from a bad cold, but I also can't put on my thinking cap.

There has just been a lot of things going on on my mind... mostly about life and how I abused the people who were really close to me. Mixed emotions inside.... A part of me doubting myself, like "Can I really please the people in my life?" "I'm tired. Why do people expect so much out of me?" Well, no matter what it is, I'm plainly confused. My life, in my opinion, hasn't been good. Maybe it's because I didn't trust God enough with my life that I'm now suffering from the after-effects for not believing in him?

I feel like a living body without a living soul... merely walking around the Earth without feeling the undying love the special ones in my life have to give me. I'm merely slef-pitying myself right now, but I thought I'd just share to you how I feel. :)

I'm an Aquarian, so I'd like to receive advice from people who I haven't met face to face. Maybe AFF can be the source where I can receive some counselling? Anyways, now that I read back on it, there are just a jumble of thoughts. I'm sorry. I may not be able to update for a long time, and I feel that it's as if it's running away from my priority of being an author on this site, but right now guys... life is not quite working for me.