Hi guys!

I know y'all haven't heard from me in a while. 

Surprise! I'm still alive, thriving, and surviving this 21st century with a smile. 

Life, ever since the summer of '23, has been coming at me from all angles. 

I'm so proud to say that I finally feel like I'm growing up. I have a clear vision of the future I want and I'm determined to do whatever it takes to make it a reality, which is- I need to do a lot more growing up. But growing up is a scary and exiciting and lonely experience. It takes energy and time and lots of prayers. 

In the past few months, during tough times, I wanted nothing more than to cage myself up with only my laptop and immerse myself into the stories I've created. I've missed AFF dearly. I miss the worlds I've built and the love I brewed between characters I cherish.

I joined AFF during the COVID-19 pandemic, hoping to find a community that would nourish my creativity, hoping to challenge myself as a writer, and hoping to feel less alone. I always find myself rereading the comments you've all left me. They make me smile.

My stories are far from perfect. They're honestly a mess at times, but it brings me so much joy, knowing that there are real people in the world who enjoy them. I love you all, so, so, much and it pains me- it truly does- to say goodbye.

I know, I know, I haven't completed my stories yet. 

I don't think I will anytime soon. But leaving them hanging feels right. It leaves me with hope that one day I'll return to finish them. 

God, I'm in tears. This goodbye isn't just to this site or my unfinished stories. It's a goodbye to the teenager who wrote fan fiction on her phone under her covers until 2-3am in the morning. It's a goodbye to the girl who lived off daydreams and fiction.

But hey- it's time. It's time for me to grow up.

This isn't a farewell forever. It's an extended (very extended) see you later.

I know deep down that I will return. Perhaps in a year or two. 
Whenever it will be, it will take a while.

Anyhoo, I apologize deeply for leaving you hanging. 

Hold on to the hope that I'll return? 

I love you, I love you, I love you!

Thank you reading my silly little stories. 
 

All the love,

xoxo

Ella 

PS: I do have a parting gift :) Stay tuned.