It was the chance that I tried to grab. It was an opportunity I lost to. It wasn't because I didn't pass my audition tape, but because I wasn't good enough to make it to the top 100 of our country. I'm just not good enough. As my former voice teacher said, no matter how much compliment you receive, you should still think about who is saying those compliments and how that person say it. A lot of people can say you're good, but those people can just be commoners who enjoy music. If one person who is professional in music or has studied music, then that person's opinion matter.

I just watched the final episode. The last two contestants was a 15-year old female representative from Thailand, Sorn, and the 23-year old male representative from our country, Philippines, Rince. I really wanted to be there, even when I saw who was our country's representative. There were only supposed to be two representatives per country, but ours had three. The two others are twins, which also happened to study at the high school of my college. T.T JEALOUS? ABSOLUTELY. I even have this friend who said that she had been with those twins at teh Philippine Academy of Music, I think and lost to those twins in a contest. That  friend of mine is actually one of the best singers in our glee club.

Anyway, I told myself before that if I don't make it to the top 100, it means I'm not as a great singer. Maybe singing will just be my pastime and my singing 'career', you know, performing in small events and such, may end when I graduate because I really think that this 'singing' won't bring me anywhere. Even if i want to be a Kpop star or a real singer, I know I can see.

I'll just either work on television as a producer(executive, associate or assistant), director(technical, associate, assistant or executive) or scriptwriter, or on events, managing concerts (I'll try to bring U-Kiss, Kim Hyunjoong, Beast, Girls Generation or Super Junior here~ XD).

Just another dramatic post brought by my failure. T.T