Hello, 

It's been forever since I wrote on here. 

I've been finding it hard to write stories again. I'm sorry.  I sometimes send a rough story to friends but I find they lack interest or respond and so I lose motivation to continue. I write stories with the end all planned out and somehow I get blank in the middle so my stories are left waiting. I think my ability to write stories had become lost to me. I don't have that desire or that motivation anymore. and it's sad for me. I don't even read books anymore. 

Maybe it is because I'm in a new place in life, or due to trauma in my past which the stories were my release and comfort. I haven't kept in the loop of SHINee for so long now, that I wouldn't even be able to visualise them in my head. My interest in the duo of 2min has also been lost to me so I don't have that thought to plan my story. I haven't listened to their music or watched a video since 2019. I don't even feel like I know them anymore. I saw a picture of Jinki and was shocked at how much he had changed. It's sad because they were a big part when I first found them with RDD. I would watch them day and night. Now I don't even see posts. 

I don't want to delete my stories as some are completed on here and I have loved any comments I got. I used to go back to them from time to time for a re-read and I know some of you do too. 

But I don't know if I will ever be able to finish the incomplete ones even though I have the ending to half of them on a document. just waiting for the middle filler. I feel sorry for you who were my readers. I let you down. 

I'm sorry.

I don't know where to go from here. Limbo is what my account is right now. I will check on comments once every blue moon because of the occasional review. But unless I have a miracle turn around it will remain this way. 

Maybe I will complete the incomplete with an unedited copy of the endings so you know how they were going to end. But I will decide this at a later date. 

But for now ...Be blessed. Be well. 

And thankyou. 

Choi GiGi