There is so much to share that I decided to make a blog post. Firstly, I never try to delve too much into my personal life here because AFF is my safe place where I can be creative as much as I want. It's a stress reliever for me and I write mainly because I love to write. It's a hobby of mine ^^ I love kpop and kpop will always have a special place in my heart!

My sister introduced me to Super Junior and EXO months prior and we would always just sit there in front of our tv watching kpop videos together and fangirling over them. It came to the point where me and my sister became obsessed with kpop specifically EXO, BTS, and iKON. It was like our own little bonding hobby. We obsessed over hot kpop boy idols! XD I never told anyone I listened to kpop because kpop wasn't as popular as it is now. In my senior year 2013, I had my own secret playlist on my iPhone that nobody but my sister and best friend (at the time) knew about, and would listen to all of the amazing 2nd and 3rd gen songs I had listed on there. Despite Psy's Gangnam Style became a big hit in America, nobody really paid much attention to listen to kpop, so it's honestly super amazing that kpop is becoming more known now. 

ANYWAY, I'm totally getting too side-tracked and I apologize for that. That's probably going to happen more often than you think. >.<;;;

I first started on this app as an avid reader looking for something romantic to read after somehow coming across an old BTS Jimin fic. I read it. I loved it, so I looked for another story similar to it and realized you needed an account in order to have access to some stories. I made my first account on here in 2014 and continued reading stories. I would comment my thoughts about their story and desperately hoped the authors would reply back (even though some didn't and it left me feeling a bit down). I think I officially became more active on this site in 2015 when I began my journey in writing. It was such a rollercoaster. I noticed writers on here that were big and had such a wide range of readers that it inspired me to want the same recognition. For many years, I went on plenty of hiatuses (just ask my friend NeverNinaaa, she'll confirm that to be true LOL though we didn't meet until around 2019.) because I thought my writing and I gave up simply because nobody wanted to read my stories. It wasn't until recently like about almost a year ago when I officially came but under a different account I created (I forever deleted my account- I do not recommend it. I had old stories on there that I'll never get back because I wasn't thinking about the consequences) that I realized I shouldn't care about what others thought about my stories. The main reason I should be writing should be because it's fun. That's why I never keep a schedule because then it doesn't remain a hobby. I shouldn't feel the need to write for others. I write because I want to and that's how other authors should view this site as. I absolutely love the support I get on my fics even if it's just one person that makes me happy and I am proud of myself because I finally feel like I've made some growth. 

Here's the news that makes my heart a bit heavy thinking about it. The older I get, the less I have time for this site and the more my interests change. 30 is approaching for me in two years and it'll be time to say goodbye probably for good. Not so much writing but generally fanfiction as a whole. I'll still love kpop and as I said above, it'll always have a special place in my heart but reading/writing fanfiction will probably be no more, and I know it's a little less than two years away, but in the near future (Spring 2024) to be exact, I will be on a temporary hiatus. It makes my heart heavy to think about but as I keep getting older, there are new chapters in my life being written. My youngest is 2 and he'll be going to preschool next school year and so that's going to be a big change in my life. My oldest is now officially a 1st grader- his last day of school was today. Since it's summer now, I'll be spending even more time with my little family which will also limit my time on here probably just as much as my oldest kid's sports season. Time will very much be limited on here especially now that I've also made the decision to go back to college and finish what I started years ago.

Long story short: I went to college fall of 2014 and then ended up quitting because I was young, naive, and not taking it seriously like I should have been. I was too focused on the "now" that was happening and not my future and so my choices screwed me over. I'm an STNA and for a long time that's what I thought I wanted to be but honestly, I was just lazy and wanted to settle in life instead of putting in the effort to make something of myself. It took me eight years to realize that nursing is my passion and that there is a whole range of options and possibilities where I can help people and make a difference. I love my nurse's aide job where I can help the sick/injured elderly who need a caregiver and I've done it for years 6-7 yrs, but now there's another door for me to open and I'm going to put all of my faith and perseverance into walking through that door.

I'm not saying I'll be permanently gone forever any time soon but just know my time on here will not be active, which is sorta not anything new XD But still I don't want my friends to think I've fallen off the face of the earth! I've made some really awesome friends here!

If you took the time to read this, thank you and I hope I made sense because I feel like I got sidetracked a few times. To all of my close friends and avid readers on here, Ily!!! Thank you for supporting me through everything! Here's my discord if anyone of my friends that don't already have it want to chat: BaekonBitz#4555!

PS- please wish me luck! I'll need it ;D