Wish me well .

Its hard sometimes to wake up in the morning, and feels like your world is empty. 

But me,myself tell my heart,your world is not empty. You still have your mom and siblings beside you. 

I tell myself, you have to be strong for them. If not, they will collapsed without you. Who will help and be there for them,when you are the pillar in the family...

Sometimes I fell like giving up. Sometimes I just want to walk away but I can't take the first step, because I will always look back, and think, what will my actions affect my family,my mom.

3 years without anxiety medications. And I hope it will continue that way. 

The anxiety and depression comes and goes. Sometimes it comes so suddenly that it leaves my mind blank and everything closing up to me. Tremblings, dizziness, and I can heart my heart beats like beside my ear. Loud. 

I dont know what I am saying here. 

Sorry for rambling.