I used to be an ELF back in 2008 I was highly devoted to Suju & my ultimate bias at that time (even until now) had always been Hangeng.

But then all change when he left Suju. I was so heartbroken I refused to listen to any Suju songs anymore. I miss him. He's like my teenage first crush ever. I will never forget how much I love Hangeng. 

I respect his decision. Things happened for reasons & he had so much passion for acting so perhaps SM not for him. So I'm ok. 

Around 2 or 3 years ago I started to slowly get back with Suju. Even before that I got a bit hooked up (Mr Simple was so popular back then) so I just linger around the fandom. But not ready yet to be fully devoted ELF. However, the whole Kangin fiasco started & I gave up. 

I believe anyone here can relate how painful the feelings of losing members in your favourite group right? It sounds little childish but I don't want to listen to Suju anymore. I refuse to have my heart breaking again. I still could remember what a wreck i was when Hangeng left. 

Then few years past, I got in out from KPOP and I can see just how strong few groups in the years and surprisingly Suju is one of them. Believe me how surprised I am. A bit proud to as ex Elf. They make cb, all independent and mature. Hangeng is doing well too. What can I say? Maybe I have never fall out in love in the first place. They are the one bringing me into KPOP after all.

So here I am trying to get on track with the fandom again. I listen to their musics again, read fanfiction. Any good one here? So far I found a few and those are quite satisfying. If any of you know any good SJ fanfic (idm any ship, i read even OC) do let me know. ^^

That's all for my long blog entry. Been a long time since i made one. Maybe i get back with blog again in this site. I'm off to work now. Stay healthy everybody :)