Have you ever been in this situation where the secret you're concealing for a long time known by your closest friend. and you know if they know your secret they will leave you? 

I have been keeping my health condition such a longggggg time.... in fact I have to depend on medicine for the rest of my life. and my closest friend already knew it and keep on avoiding me. I am soooo sad! currently I'm feeling really lonely... tbh when this happened I really wanted to go to the rooftop and jump. in my mind also there is a lot of way that I could think of to kill myself. At that time I just hope that someone will push me downstairs or what ever. 

I am extremely sad. every places I go I had to keep this secret to not let anyone know about this because I already know the outcome they know. 

They don't know what have I been through this whole time! They don't even know the struggles that I am facing! Why thou? I never did anything wrong to them, I never complain or anything when clearly they made me upset. Just this once.......

I always look around me and wonder

Why am I different from others?