Am i still alive??
Yes...i am still alive....
Now...why am i not updating anything??
Actually...i still love yunjae...i still believe in them...and i promise not to abandon my fics....
Its just recently i am dealing with my own love life
Yeah....well...an is courting me for about 11months now and no plans of giving up....
However...the man courting me is legally married....
I was trap.....by his charms and his persistence....
Its complicated...
It was like...he want to own me....because he dont want only friendship....
He said he want connection...love...affection...and lust...
I was struggling....on what to do...of course anyone will tell me..its bad...its a sin to be with a married guy....surely it is....
But everything was messed up and complicated.....and in the end...we became official....
An agreement was made....no phone calls, no sending messages....no cheesy words such as i love you s....no words like baby, babe...darling....
Act like nothing...no flirts...do nothing....just plain talk....
I dont even understand why i ended up saying yes to this guy....
And from the word saying yes.....now my bed is full of stuff toys......i should be happy...but of course....i also should not........
Because, i was stuck in the middle of situation were i experience in actual things that i only read on some yunjae fic out there
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