It's been a while since I have been social. Lately I have been in the habit of avoiding events that require any sense of communication.

I know it sounds bad , but I can't help it ..I get super irritated and sensitive .. I thought it was the stress from my studies yet it got worse when I'm on a holiday . 

I miss a lot of my friends ... can't even to begin to describe how I interact less and less with them though  as If there is a wall built between us .

So in order to overcome this feeling , I remembered one of my friends' birthday today .. I texted to congratulate eventhough we haven't talked in weeks 

I'm afraid it may give the wrong opinion in a way of me but I just did it because I never miss a birthday and I used to even throw parties .. this time I didn't do anything.. just the text .

I can't understand myself sometimes .. 

I don't know if I'm the one who changed or is it everyone else and I'm just in my place unmoving?

If this how my twenties are going , then I doubt I'll ever be happy .