Hello, my dearest lovelies!!!

I just wanted to start off by saying Happy Happy New Year! 2019 is practically here! This is being posted a few days before the New Year, but oh well. XD

I can’t speak for everyone, but 2018 was a…very intriguing year for me. I was finally finished with graduate school for good. I went through a long period of twisting emotions, depression and horrible anxiety, but eventually came out on top of it. I grew closer to my best friends, to my husband, and to my family. I learned much about myself as well.

I am horrible at keeping up with New Years resolutions, so I’ll instead share something about myself, a goal from it and what that impacts here on AFF.

I don't typically share this much about myself, but I will here in the spirit of my new goals. In 2018, the depression and anxiety that I had been struggling with since my teen years (I’m 26 now) really…went over the top. There were days where my emotions were so out of control that I’d burst out crying at work. Some days, I couldn’t write, didn’t want to move out of bed or off of the couch. Some days, I really would have loved to sleep and never wake up. I'm kind of scraping the top of this rough period since I don't want to fully relive it, but it was just...horrible. There were long periods of time where I really began to hate myself once again.

I felt like all of my hobbies were lackluster. My passion for writing was not as strong as it had been. I struggled to write and keep writing. And I really buried myself in buying things I didn’t need and felt so unhappy.

With some loving support, I’ve come out of that really rough period. I’ve changed my medications to work for me, my emotions are stable and I’m no longer feeling like I’m in a haze all the damn time. I can focus at work again, I can come home and want to write. I’m only telling you this because I’ve worked on myself, realized my weaknesses, and I’m planning some personal goals of not buying anything material wise for the next year, along with decluttering many of the things in my life.  

Now that this really bad period is over, and I have this new goal, I’m hoping to put more effort into finishing stories here, and starting new ones. I truly do wish to write new suspense stories, new fluff stories, and stories with perhaps different pairings (onkey and jongyu are my guilty pleasure lol).

More than Meets the Eye WILL be 100 chapters, mark my words!!!! And it WILL be finished this year!!!!!!!!

What else does this mean? Since I’ll be decluttering many things in my life, including physical ones, I’m planning to give away some of the Kpop items I have, SHINee and non-SHINee, to those that will love these items and cherish them. These items are albums I already had multiple copies of, photos, posters, tickets, bracelets, etc. There will be more on that coming hopefully during the summer months!

I’ll also, HOPEFULLY, be doing a ton of major editing on my older stories, adding my master list back, and getting moving on stories that are on the back burner and need some love.

I can’t speak for anyone, but for me, 2018 was full of wonderful moments, yet, some really bad ones as well. I’m excited though, for 2019 and all that it will bring.

I can’t thank you ALL enough for your constant support, well wishes, encouraging messages, comments, subs, and so much more. It was these brightening words and actions that I would look to when I needed to see a bit of light in the darkness. Thank you all for being so patient with me regarding long posting times, weeks of NOT posting, putting stories on the back burner and sometimes just disappearing all together. I’m so glad to have readers that truly find comfort and joy in my stories and support me, even when I’m being terrible and not writing and posting! XD

With that being said, I wanted to wish everyone a very happy new year, full of excitement and well wishes, and hopefully a wonderful and fullfiling year for everyone!

Thank you all!!

Love, Moonie <333

PS. I’m always going to be keeping my stories here for those that need to read them when they need it. That fact, will never change. I too, will always be here if someone needs a shoulder to lean on, or someone to vent to. <33