I had a Jonghyun dream. I wrote this down a little after 6am.
I wanted to write this down fast because I don't want to forget.
I feel sad and I'm crying, but there's a weird calm at the same time.

If you don't read the whole thing. That's okay.
But please read the last 3 lines.

(x)

The dream starts off with me feeling down and walking the main street in the small town I live in.
Jonghyun pulls up beside of me and tells me to get in the car.
I nod because I am speechless. SHINee's Jonghyun here? Talking to me?
Telling ME to get into HIS car?
I obviously get in and he's so happy and cheery.
"Do you know who I am?" He asks.
I nod. He laughs and says, "Good. Any time you need me just say my name 3 times and believe."
"Do you mind if I pick up a friend?"
I nod again and we drive to the other end of town.
(You can go from one end of my town to the other in like 5 mins, lol)

We get there and his friend comes out.
I yell, "ONEW!"
Jonghyun laughs and gets out of the car. He and Onew go inside the house.
Jonghyun was wearing this minus the hat (x)
Meanwhile dream me is trying to figure out what year it is.
"Onew has blond hair... Jjong has blond hair.... Everybody era, 2013"
I'm confused because it's obviously present day 2018, but why is it 2013 Onew and Jonghyun?

Only Onew comes out of the house. He smiles, but doesn't speak and starts driving.
I ask where Jonghyun is and he says nothing.
Are we picking up the other members?

The dream scene changes.

I'm at my parents house where I'm having a huge party.
Then like the school bully shows up and starts sh*t.
I tell him to stop or I'm going to tell or call the police and have my own party shut down.
He threatens me. For some reason I tell my mom? (lol)
He comes after me so I climb the lattice to my back porch.
I then jump into a covered pool. 
(You can't do this irl. You can die, bc the plastic fills with water and clings to you)

I say Jonghyuns name 3 times and I hit the water.
The scene cuts to Jonghyun. Where he is at his own party.
You can see where he can hear me calling for him, but he ignores it.
He looks almost mad and keeps dancing.

Scene cuts back to me and I'm strugling in the water. It's only to my , but I keep going under.
I'm close to the ladder. One more step and I could reach.
I go under once more and when I come up again I make it.
On the deck I'm crying. Not only because I could have died, but because Jonghyun wasn't there.

The dream scene changes once more.

I'm in a room with some friends. Kind of like a hide out.
Games, books, an old couch, and a tv are all there.
It's in a tall building with an automatic sliding glass door that leads to a balcony.
The door doesn't work. I ran into it earlier.

My friends and I are sitting around playing games and just talking.
I tell them about Jonghyun. They don't beileve it. It can't be real they said.
I am obviously offended. "Watch this." I say as I walk to the side of the room opposite the glass door.
There's a chorus of "Is she really?" "Don't do it" and "She's just bluffing".

I run torwards the door. Eyes closed. Whispering to myself.
"Jonghyun... Jonghyun... Jonghyun..."
The door slides open. I hear his voice whisper, "Jump"
I jumped, into Jonghyun's arms.
I'm laughing and crying. "You're here! You came! I knew you would."

He laughs that one laugh of his.
Where it's all soft and melodious.
"I'll always be here."