It's been a while since i've updated. thanks aton again for those who actually put up with my rants, but i won't be undating wanytime soon. i think i might be all right this might be my last one for this year. 

So like the title says i have new firends finally. I'm now in marching band, which by the way had gotten me 3 shades darker, and i'm starting to warm up with my section. i play Alto sax btw. it's still kinda akwards since i'm new, and the only other new people are freshmen, and i'm a serior. but there nice people. 

the section leader, he's a cool dude and so is another sax player too. there good people despite me feeling like i alway walk i on something when i want to ask them something, they actually are nice people. 

normally i would go to my best friends for help, like my wife (not really married) and my fluffy. but they have their own lives and live in different states. so i don't want to bother them as much. then there are my cousins but i hardly evey see one and the other is just too close with my family and is going thorough their own things too.

now the saxs are actually willing to listen to me. i don't know why but i feel like i can trust them. it's not "oh hey your nice to me i'll trust you." i'm actually warming up to them fairly quickly and it's weird because my werid side is showing the more i'm around them. hell i litterally just jummped to touch the head of the tallest sax player just becasue i was hyper. and that does not happen so quickly especially when i'm not close with a person. i just feel happier knowing that there's someone at school who is willing to listen to me and help me calm down.

with everything that has been going on, i need some hugs, and an actually shoulder to cry on. so thanks and i'll update you guys on somehting other than my emtional states hopfully