hello it's your girl, who love life is just full of angst. so i'm here to update you guys on my life because you know i like to update you guys. well as the title suggest i am just so confused on how i feel to my so-called friend, and my ex. I know what some of you guys are thinking "he aint worth it." but i just can't stop the little part of my from liking him still. now why did i say my so-called friend? well let's just call her karra. she thought it was okay to "talk" to my ex when she knew full well that i was still deeply in love with him. and she did it behind my back. question for all of you is a month a long time? there are people who say yes and some who say no. tell me how you feel about that and your opinions in the comments section. (i sound like a youtuber).

but i do feel backstabbed by them. and i just don't know how i feel about them. i gave them the benefit of the doubt and they just don't know how much i still worry about them. especially considering the fact that there is rumors that are going around saying they had and she's prego. they really only think with their / since you know she is just a thirsty girl. 

just some background on why i call her thirsty. she literally had like 10 boyfriends before my ex. she literally broke up with her ex and three days later she was "talking" to my ex. she was with her ex and stayed with for about 3-4 months even though i told her to drop him bc he literally said this in her face "I miss my (ex-crush name)." like what? who stays with them if that was the case" then there was the case where she didn't really consider her ex's feelings on what meant to him. she wanted to him but he wanted to have with his future wife. which is respectable. but nope she wanted . and last but not least she literally jokes about having STDs. like who the jokes about that ?! please tell me. and i wondered why no one really liked her. she's a hoe. i'm going to say this rn, i'm only friends with her bc i pitty her.

for my ex. idk what to feel for him. idk if i still like him. if i am upset with him. or something else. i just kinda don't know. 

i can't believe that you guys read these things. thank you so much for listening/reading this. like you guys are amazing, so thank you.