This week I had to part ways with someone I considered a good best friend. Though we didn't end on bad terms, nor really end at all -more like decreased our level of friendship to something more casual and common, I feel fine. 

We were both always together. Hung out together, shared our feelings and thoughts with one another -along with our hardships, we watched things together, were into BTS together, and felt inseperable. We got each other through incredibly dark times together and it was bliss. I was sincerely happy with being loved.

Then she got a boyfriend, and all of that changed. Suddenly she hardly had any time to spend with me at all. Yes, she tried to make time for me, but all of a sudden she barely could. She was 'busier'. Ouch. Being replaced that simply by people who constantly tell you how much they care for you is a reason why I don't typically trust people and let people in. I keep people at arms length, because when they're alone and not feeling good about themselves, they have all the time in the world for you, but when they meet someone new who gives them a new level of happiness, they don't have time for you at all.

So I severed our friendship. I won't be doing those things with them anymore, even though they'd like to continue doing it when they have free time. They chose to take that route and put their relationship first. I'm not a second option. If you want to replace me, then so be it. I'm going to step back, retract everything and let go. And I will -never- make that same mistake again. I don't care how well I click with someone, like how well we clicked together. People can't be trusted and you can't rely on others to be your source of happiness. 

I still talk to her. She was a good enough friend that I don't hate her or wish anything ill against her. But going back to that, which I had poured my heart into with moments and time we shared together? No.