These days, I've been questioning myself why am I still in this fandom. It's not that I love my queens less (my queens are amazing). It's the people inside the fandom itself. This fandom is really toxic. Not just because the opinions clash. But the division inside . Big time. The ty arguments here and there almost every passing day. And no, instead of being closer together, the gaps are getting wider. For a person like me who just keep mum in everything and just observe everyone, that is messy. So messy you can't even pick up the pieces after everyone threw ed up nonsense to each other. And it hurts even more when they throw something actually sensible all because that sounds like something a hater would say. Pointing out things that shouldn't be pointed out in the first place. Or bringing up things that should've been already forgotten. Or making a small incident grow bigger. Why? Is it fun dragging the ones you love down? Is it fun seeing them hurt? Why do we hurt the people we love? Is that even love?

Of course, there will be people that will question your love for the ones you support when you raise these kinds of questions just because all the gears in their heads start roaring to defend themselves. Isn't it? And some people would just remember my first sentences. That's the thing about misunderstandings. We only comprehend the things we want to comprehend. Yes, we did read everything. We listened to everything said. We say/think that we understand them even. But did we really? Do we really? Will we? I guess not. I bet your defense mechanisms are one by one coming out.