Letting go of the past things to move forward. Past is past as they say. It will remain and stay in the past. Why it will still affects the future? Maybe it was not past is past at all. Past keeps on hunting the present and will continue up to the future. Present is the fruit of the past. While the past stands as the roots of who you are today. The better the roots the better the product will be. But it was not as good as it is supposed to be. There are things that are not under control. Things that you could have prevented but you chose not to. 

Wrong choices that will hunt you, till the present. I want to run away, I keep on running but it keeps on chasing me. I tried to shove it away but I can't. Well let's try a different thing to do. I'll do the opposite, I'll embrace it and get strength on it. Its my weakness I wish it could be my strength but why it is so hard? Why it is so hard embracing the truth? The reality that I couldn't go back in time and make things right but instead I have to face the consequence? 

Facing my fears could be the answer, it could be. I tried facing it, I made it, I face my fear but nothing changed. The pain is still with me, the burden? I could still feel it, Im still carrying the same burden that Im trying to shove. It is so heavy, I want to let go of it. I badly want to let go but it just wont. It is so painful. I felt like crying and shouting every now and then. When will these tears dry? When will I be able to get used to the pain?

Am I alright? Am I okay? Yes, I am okay definitely I am okay with broken pieces within me, with all the scars that never get treated, will be ever treated in the first place? It wont. I am a girl with full of bruise and scars within me. I tried hiding it I used all the possible ways of hiding it but the pain? It is just so hard to bear. I can no longer take it. I can no longer bear with it. I tried fighting. I have done a good fight. I've been carrying this burden for years. 

Why letting go is so hard? How I wish it is easy as how I open my arms and it will no longer in my embrace but why? I embrace it yet nothing happened, now I want to let go but why is it so hard? 

Is there any possible ways to let go of the pain? I am tired but I have to live with this. I can't pass this pain to anyone because I know how hard it is. Can just someone help me to carry all this burden? Trust me its too heavy for me. I hope I'll just get used to it. I have nothing but myself with this bag of pain.