So just a bit of a further update to my last post.

The last week and a half has been a bit manic tbh. I've contacted a lot of siblings and it's been difficult because my dad has mentally screwed up all of my older siblings and constantly played them against each other, then what he did to me and two other siblings really tore everyone apart. My mum wanted to distance me, my younger sister and my slightly older half sister from the rest of the family. 

It's been around 20 years and relationships with my siblings have been intermittent at best because of my father and his death has affected us more than we'd like to admit if we're all honest.

There's been a lot of pent up tension between us and in the last few days money and legal things around that has been brought up and it's been daunting. My second oldest brother was in contact with my dad the most over the last 20 years so he knew more about the finanaces than all of us. It's been difficult trust wise because they older siblings are very weary of things but because I was the last person to have had contact with him in the UK amonst the fact that as the second youngest sibling out of the 7 of us I have been very active with things surrounding the death and I am the sibling that no one has any issues with, it has been decided today that I will be taking full control over the finances in the UK. Its daunting but I will make sure everyone gets an equal share as they rightfully should.

I spend today with my dads best friend and I had a chill time smoking and just relaxing. The good news in all of this is that the rough figure I will be entitled to allows me to settle some personal things and also ensures that if Red Velvet anounce a UK/European date then I can definatley afford it no problem.

I still have a lot to discuss with my siblings and am also in contact with a lawyer out in Jamaica regarding his property over there. It's going to be hectic but I will be able to have a good time with things at least :).

The good thing is I'm a grandma 25 in a few hours so tomorrow will be pretty much purely relaxation for me which I do deserve after a lot of personal stress recently.

I can assure you all I'm mentally doing okay and I will be continuing to update things. I am working on things it's just about having the time.

Also happy 5 years of being engaged to me lol!

Peace out 🐻✌♡