I know that these couple months especially have been the hardest for me, and I'd like to say thank you to everyone who's been here and so supportive. You guys have really been the sunshine in my days and the push I need to keep going when all I can think about is calling it quits. I can't express my gratitude enough to everyone, and there's nothing more that I wish for than to be able to show that in some way to the extent that I feel.

So, thank you guys. I appreciate the encouraging messages, sent love, and all the little things ♡ It means a lot for what everyone's done and said. Through the days I'm having breakdowns in stores, crying on a drive, passing out, my heartbreak, and all the painful days, thank you for always being there.

Specifically though, I'd like to say thank you to Saritababao, kagura-w4l, xiuminbeforeflowers, Novachaser, and Ayania.

Saritababo like you don't need me to write out why I'm thankful for your existence lmao but thank you as always love for dealing with me daily OTL If I wrote out all my love and appreciation for you, I'd have a book lol You know ily to death. Thank you forever and always dear friend ♡

kagura-w4l I'm so happy to have met you when I first started out on aff. You've been a constant supporter and friend. You know ily, seoulmateu~ haha In all seriousness, thank you for extensively looking into my case and always seeing what you can do to help me. I really appreciate it. You've done so much more than my friends irl that I've known for majority of my life, so thank you ♡

xiuminbeforeflowers omg bby just thanks for always making me laugh, accepting all my weird/dorkiness/cheesiness/occasional kawaii side xD, and being an ear to my troubles even when I don't want to burden you with any of it OTL ilysm swegking lol have all my heart bullets ok like a buy one get ten free packs of love bullets 

Ayania I honestly hate how I haven't gotten a full chance to talk to you more and send back an equally ginormous message because tbh ily to bits already ;×; You're always so sweet, patient and understanding with me, even though we've barely gotten to know each other yet Q×Q But, dearest sick buddy, I hope for the best and that we may pull through and get well together~ May you have a speedy recovery my love because you deserve all the fluff of the world ;~;

Novachaser I'm sure it may be a bit strange I'm thanking you haha Although we've talked a bit, I really do mean it when I say I appreciate our talks. It's always refreshing to discuss writing with you and enthusing about things we love ^^ The love you have for my writing is so ridiculous lmao but ily and thank you always for your support ♡ It means a lot to me as well that though we've finally begun talking, I'm happy to have this start of a friendship with you and that you've been so kind in is offering to listen and also offer me a story Q×Q ily and support all you do. I look forward to more talks with you and stories we may possibly exchange in the future ♡

All in all, I appreciate everyone's understanding and patience with me, and of course all the get well messages and constant positive feedback that keeps me writing more ♡ In many ways, everyone has really lifted my spirits on my darkest days. I'm sorry that I'm not fully myself and that I can't be here for everyone as much as I want to be, but I hope for a day I may be able to show my gratitude and also be someone you can rely on and let me listen to anything you grieve about.

I know I'm not always the most sentimental person every day because it makes me cringe sometimes just cause of how I've been affected in my life, but I hope that everyone knows how much I care, love, and am thankful for you guys always. With these recent days and upcoming days, I know I may seem distant or dead in my replies but please know I'm trying and struggling through a lot. My actions and words shouldn't be excuse by all means but do trust that I'm doing my best to be my usual self and keep my own spirits up. I only ask for your forgiveness for the days I can't be here for you, my random disappearances, my emotional rollercoaster and switching personality/mood, and when I seem like I'm treating you as a stranger. Again, I'm just going through more than I can physically and mentally take and it's really wearing me out and draining the life out of me but by putting this out there I hope it may serve as a constant reminder that I am actually grateful and love you guys just the same ♡