So hi.

Hello.

I don't know if you remember me and that's okay if you don't.

I'm back. Sort of.

I'm really anxious and shaking being back like I know that sounds ridiculously absurd since this used to be like home but I can't right now.

Quick catch up.

I'm still sick and haven't been getting better. I took a break for my health. Still have Lupus. We found out I have no brain tumors so yay. I'm okay for now. I have attacks and episodes every day now. I get attacks just being stressed so I'm walking on a thin line at the moment. Oh and laptop is still broken and haven't bought a new one.

That's all.

I really missed everyone here.. You can ask Saritababo like I talk about it all the time. All the guilt of leaving people behind.. All the guilt of leaving readers hanging.. The guilt of not replying to friends and messages and requests.. Not completing any story..

The stress and my bad feelings just pile up.

All I can say is that I'm truly sincerely sorry...

I need some time please.

I'm sorry.

Ily guys still and everyone's been on my mind. I pray you are all well..

For now all I have planned is that I need to take my time coming back and not rushing it all.

Updates are never certain and I make no promises..

Also I'm sorry to announce that I do want to get back into writing and find that fun and enjoyment again.. it died for me when things piled up and I had all these expectations for myself and what I wanted to get done for everyone and then I just became so overwhelmed every time I logged in.. so I'm sorry but I think for now I may be kinda a silent writer? Not sure on that yet..

I will reply to messages and comments really slowly and take my time coming back to everyone..

My social anxiety is insanely high so please..please continue to be patient with me. I'm very sorry to continue asking for that..

Thank you to all who miss me as much as I miss them and thank you for the understanding..

Thank you for those who still consider me a friend ;~;♡