Random thoughts about 21 years of my single life

I've never been in relationship before since I was born. I don't really afraid with man actually. I have a brother and my father is a good father. It's just I don't feel like to having some relationship. I got turn off at some man that I somehow "like" so many times. Do I expect too much from them? Or I'm just searching for reason to not have it.

I feel like having some relationship will boring. I like to be free. And I'm type of girl that man don't really like. I know it really well. 

 

Sometimes I feel like I'm an aromantic person or maybe aual too. I really enjoy my single life to spend my love for my family and friends.

 

Maybe someday, if I found a man who can really approach me for real not just some random guys who act "push and pull" to me, I will really considerate that person. I love a person who make efforts in anything they do. If you really want to get it, do something about it. 

 

I ever like a person at junior high school, but I was scared too approach him more. I remember it well that I texted him. But, deep down in my heart, I always feel unworthy because I'm ugly, not cute, and have bad reputation.

 

I guess one of the reason is because of that. I was bullied. And until now, I still feel myself is ugly, and unworthy of love from a man.

 

It's scary how the scars still left in my heart. The sad memories when I got bullied.

 

I wish, someday, I can really found someone who can set me free from this. 

 

Can I feel worthy of someone's love?

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fullsunana #1
4 months overdue but just so you know you're not a lone. i'm 24 and still single. not pretty too but one thing for sure, i'm content with my own self. i think it's important to feel good abt yourself first before being good with someone else. being good doesn't mean you have to feel pretty. but it means accepting the facts and work around it. i'm not pretty, so what that doesn't make me love myself less than i am now. so i work hard to have more likeable personality for my own benefits like being good to the environments, treat myself good, treat animals as they should be treated, keep bad comments to myself etc. and i'll try to find a positive outlook on everything like bcause i'm ugly lol ppl ik for sure ppl will love me because of my personality and not because of my face. that's how i cope and overcome my insecurities, i hope in any way if it doean't help, it'll bring you to ease. and hey we don't need men/other half for us to be happy. have a great day ♡
gordeebrubaduck #2
You are worthy of someone's love. But what's more important is your love for yourself. I am somewhat alike you where I've been single for 21 years and I like spending time with myself and family and friends. I find that even though I want that fluttering feeling when you're in a relationship, I like being free and planning time around myself. Sure I have liked some people before but I never confessed because somehow I feel like I prefer to just like the person and not be in a relationship. But who knows? Maybe we'll know if we find the one?
ellanor #3
Yes u are worthy to feel someone's love.. evybody r worth for it.. maybe u just havent met the right 1 for u.. dont feel down bout that.. cheer up!
ephemeralglimpse #4
To your question: yes, you are worthy of someone's love. Don't doubt yourself about this fact.
I'm turning 20 next month and have never dated. I have people that I can lean on and talk to so I never feel like I need someone who I can be romantic with. You don't need a man to validate you as a person. Be happy being yourself and continue to grow.
I have accepted that dating isn't for me, and it's different for everyone. It's tempting to compare ourselves to others but it's not worth it. Find love in others that can give you the love you need.
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