do you ever wonder how you ended up like this?
Ah I think my mental health is not the best right now which is why I can't really seem to focus on writing the stories as well so I'm sorry
I know almost no one reads my blogs, which is fine, since you've signed up for my stories and not me so I promise I'll do my best to post something soon
but that won't stop me from posting my songs/poems here since I don't have any other place to do that
if there is anyone who reads, hope you like it:)
though this one might be a bit more dark than my other stuff and surprisingly it's not lesbian themed like always, this is more so me venting so be aware

A heavy weight on my chest

Almost as if I can't breathe

I can, but it hurts and it's messed

Up

I close my eyes, there's nothing

I open them, still nothing

The struggle to feel something

Anything

Is there something wrong?

There is, definitely

As if I don't ever belong

Not here, not there

Not ever

I run and I run and I run

Until I can't run anymore

I walk and I walk and I walk

Until my legs hurt

I crawl on the dirty floor

But I'm still in place, not getting anywhere

Why is this happening?

Why is it always the same thing?

Why, why, why, why, why?

Why?

A forever of nothingness

The world is pitch black

Countless hands reach

Almost as if to pull me out

But instead they attack me

Scratches on my back

Blood on my body

There's nothing left

Nothing is inside me

But if that's it

If I'm really empty

Why does it feel like I'm filled with tears?

Tears that don't come out

Words that don't come out

I feel choked

Up

Make

It

Stop

Please

Make it stop