For you who once owned a little piece of my softest part :

Hey you, yes you... I wanna shout a thankful line for giving me chance to feel this weird feeling after long time

Hey you, yes you... I wanna let you know that I feel various feelings the time you come closer

Hey you, yes you... Do you know that you have successfully crashed my high icy wall?

Hey you, yes you... Do you know that you have successfully touched my softest yet the most fragile part of me?

Hey you, yes you... Do you know that you have succesfully erased my skepticism of love?

Hey you, yes you.. Do you know that you have made me push my ability to be romantic? (but helplessly failed)?

Hey you, yes you... Do you know that you have successfully made me smile like a fool everytime you greeted me?

Hey you, yes you... Do you know that you have successfully made me blush like a boiled crab everytime you teased me?

Hey you, yes you... Do you know that you have successfully sent a tingling sensation everytime you to me?

Hey you, yes you.. Do you know that you have made me feel important with your extreme posessive and jealousy traits?

Hey you, yes you... Do you know how much I thanked God for sending you to my life even for a while?

Hey you ....

Yes you ....

Do you know how much tears i've been dropped the day you threw those proposals?

Do you know how many times I talked like crazy to the dropped rain that I miss you so bad?

Do you know how many times I denied my longing feeling toward you?

Do you know, how many distractions I searched in order to forget you?

Do you know, how many ways of escape gateways I tried to pass to forget you?

Do you know how many soundless shouts I did in order to erase this suffocating feeling?

Hey you, yes you...

I wanna tell you some unimportant things :

I tried my best to move on, but God didn't allow

I tried my best to forget, but I can't

I tried my best to start a new page, but failed

I tried my best to erase the remaining feeling, but failed

Hey you, yes you...

Who are you?

Hey you, yes you..

What you have done to me?

Hey you, yes you...

What I have done to you, till I have to be like this?

Hey you, yes you...

Do you think that Love is a sweet torment?

If yes, I guess I've lost my sanity

I enjoy your torment

And I am craving for that torment, tho it's killing me day by day...slow but sure.

Call me stupid

Call me hopeless

Call me moron

Call me a fool

Call me idiot

Call me retard

Call me whatever you want

Hey you...yes you...

Do you hear me?

Do you see me?

Do you feel me?

Do you remember me?

Do you even ....miss me?

Hey you, yes you...

Do you know that I miss us?

Hey you... yes you...

Do you know that I am telling lie every time I say I'm happy for your new life?

Do you know that I'm internally breaking when I plastered that smile?

Do you know that I was silently crying when I discovered the fact that I am no longer your home?

Do you know that I'm sad because the reason of your laugh and smile is no longer me?

Hey you...yes you...can you grant my wishes?

Can you remember me?

Can you keep our shared memories alive inside your memory?

Can you give me your piece of feeling for me?

Hey you...yes you...

I want you to laugh a lot

I want you to stop crying

I want you to blush shyly often

I want you to be happy

Hey you, yes you...

Please remember me as your cute dwarf

Please remember me as your nagging mommy

Please remember me as your Joker

Please remember me as your hopeless admirer

Please remember me as naive yet stupid young lady who once filled your heart

Please remember me like Ishtar, the goddess of love remembers Anshargal, her another half.

I will remember you like I remember the beauty of summer.

I will remember you like I remember the beauty of starry night.

Because for me,

You are my Harley Quinn

You are my Ishtar

You are my Summer

And you are The star of my heart

 

Love,

J

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