aye to continue the posts of gay songs, have one about homophobia and giving up your loved one and yourself to avoid the pain because even though happy gay songs are great, sadly gay doesn't always mean happy so
hope you enjoy, those of you who do read it <3
 

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I'm tired of being judged by the world

The only thing I ever wanted was to be myself

It feels as though I can't breathe

 

Just because I am a girl

I can't have the privilege of loving another

If she's a women, then I'm wrong

For feeling this

 

Even if I smile

Even if I try

To say I don't mind at all

 

I have nothing left

If my identity is stolen from me somehow

 

I was afraid, I'm scared that

Because of that

I won't be able to love her

With my full heart

 

How can I be fine

If she's no longer by my side?

 

And when I yell out to you

You won't hear me if you don't want to

How can I be happy like that?

When she's with me, it's bittersweet

 

I want to love her

But I know

I don't want her to hurt too

 

I can't save myself but

If I have to give her up

To make her feel truly loved

Then I will do it all for her, my love

 

So what if I cry?

As long as she's alright

I don't mind at all

 

I'm just a friend and

Not a lover

She will find a man, someone

 

No one is worthy

For her

She's perfect

 

I say that because

I know I'm the only one

But still, if that's what's right

I will let go of my only one

 

And when I yell out to you

You won't hear me if you don't want to

How can I be happy like that?

When she's with me, it's bittersweet

 

I want to love her

But I always knew

That although my feelings are true

 

She won't be fine

If I'm the one she loves the most

So I have to let her go

 

If she can be spared the hate

Then of course

Even if I so badly want her

I want her to be happy

And well, so

 

So I take steps back

I take back

All the love I felt

Away from her so that

She can be herself

As best she can

Without the love of a girl

 

I don't want to leave

But I know

To keep her smiling forever

To shield her from the hurt

 

And even if I love you

I can't always protect you

I'm not the type to conform and yet

If it's your safety, over your tears

I will let you go

 

But always know

You will always have my heart

So don't cry anymore

My beautiful girl, be happy on your own