Dearest Readers,

I'm sure you all already know what this blog post is going to be about, yes, it's about Jonghyun's passing over to the place where he can, hopefully, finally rest. I love him. I will always love him. My SHINee will always be FIVE!

I've been having a hard time with my story since the incident with Onew. I have tried to continue writing despite all that was happening but I got tired. I was emotionally exhausted. Then when his apology letter came out and SM announced SHINee's Japan tour I was all too happy and started writing fervently. I was planning a Christmas surprise for all of you with two chapters being uploaded on the same day. But then this happened. Now I'm truly lost. I feel even more exhausted than before. Words cannot expresss how tired I feel. I'm drained. I have no emotions or creativity left in me. I cannot write anymore. I'm still struggling with my emotions. I know I'm not alone. Shawols all over the world are suffering with me. Heck even non-shawols are suffering and worrying about their own idols who seem more devastated than their fans expected. So please, take this time to help your idols. Tell them you love them, tell them their voices reach you, tell them you will stand by them, help them.

I don't know if I will discontinue this fanfic or not. I might decide in the coming months about what I should do about this fanfic. It will also depend largely on the decision of the rest of the members and of SM about SHINee's future. I will not ask you all to wait. You are free to unsubscribe. I just want to thank you all for reading my story and leaving wonderful comments. I'm eternally grateful that I got a chance to interact with you'll. I will write another blog post once I decide if I want to continue writing or not. Please bear with me. 

Thank you.