Hello everyone,

It's been a while since I've been active on here. I've been slowly writing the rest of my most recent story "The Difference Between You and Me". 

As I'm sure you all know, our precious Jonghyun has passed away. I can't tell you how much pain I've felt in the last almost 2 days. Jonghyun was everything. Jonghyun was my most cherished person. 

Writing stories about him used to bring me joy. It was like he was living his life, and I was able to create a fantasy world based off of that. It was a way for me to express my love and admiration for him. 

Now.. it's just different. Writing about him when he's no longer breathing makes me feel sick. Jonghyun and Key’s relationship gave me so much happiness, of course I know they're platonic in real life. My stories were just that: stories. Their friendship just gave me life. And how can I get life when one of them is no longer living?

It still doesn't feel real. I'm still waiting for Jonghyun to be seen in public and everything would be revealed as a big prank by some crazy person, I don't know. 

Anyway, my point is it doesn't feel right to continue my most recent Jongkey story. At least not for a long time. Maybe someday I'll feel like finishing it, but I just can't right now. I just can't. I'm truly sorry to all of my readers, and I also thank all of you for being interested in "The Difference Between You and Me" and any other stories. I loved writing that story, and I had big plans to finish it. Unfortunately, life doesn't always go the way you think it's going to.

Without Jonghyun, this world seems dull. But his legacy will live on and that's what I'll hold on to. 

Everyone please hold on. Be sad, but then celebrate who Jonghyun was. Celebrate his spirit. Live on. Because that's what he wants for us. Be strong. 

And Jonghyun, please rest, my love. You've done so good.