I have a lot to say and at the same time, not a lot to say. 

SHINee was the first Kpop band that I discovered and has always had a very special place in my heart because of it. I've always followed their exploits along with Super Junior and they've been the ones that I know could always rely on. 

I think a lot of people feel this way. --Something that once felt so permanent has been taken away and it has disturbed us. I know that as someone who suffers from major depressive disorder it is a real battle that I could sometimes conteract with Kpop and now I find that it is something I should stay away from because of this event since it causes me such sadness. 

Ultimately, what was once really sweet has become bitter and I think a lot of people are finding that they don't know where to turn since what they relied on is now tainted with such sadness. 

There are a lot of emotions bouncing around and I think it is good to remember that we are all human and as such need to be there for one another in such a trying time. 

Grieving over a singer is not silly---I've had to grapple with this myself these past 48 hours. They held a special place in your heart and gave you happiness and now that source of happiness, we found out, was also suffering and it eats away at us a little because who wouldn't want to help someone in pain? 

This is likely always going to make us sad. 

In conclusion to this rambling rant I would like to extend an invitation to anyone who is grieving to message me. We can get through this together. 

-Lily