First of all, this is my very first post, so yay but not yay. Second of all, I apologize for not being online or updating a lot these days. But today, I want to talk about something that has pretty much changed my life, and I'm sure it has also changed others.

I am hear to talk about Shinee's Kim Jonghyun's death.

Now, I don't want to be straightforward just like that, so I'll give out some info about Shinee to those of you who are new to the kpop world.

Shinee is a boy group from SM Entertainment that debuted in 2008.

Shinee consists of five members: Onew, Key, Minho, Taemin, and last but not least, Jonghyun.

They have released some of the most legendary songs in kpop history, such as Lucifer, Ring Ding Dong, Sherlock, Everybody, etc.

Shinee has accomplished so much in their nine years, that they are known as one of the legends of kpop. They are role models to most idols and are greatly respected in every way.

Now comes back to the sad news.

On December 18, 2017 at 18:10 (KST), the police announced that they had found Jonghyun unconscious at a rented apartment studio in Cheongdam-dong, Southern Seoul. His older sister however, had made the intial call to emergency responders at 16:42 (KST), claiming that she believed her brother, Jonghyun was going to commit suicide due to her receiving numerous text messages from Jonghyun himself, hinting that Jonghyun was prepared to leave.

Jonghyun was then rushed to Konkuk University Hospital where he received emergency CPR treatment and was in a state of cardiac arrest. However, he was unable to regain consciousness and passed away at the hospital.

There is no evidence on how he died yet, but investigators had discovered coal briquettes burnt on a frying pan, believing that he had died from inhaling too much toxic fumes.

People close to Jonghyun have claimed that he had suffered from depression issues for quite a long time and have explained how Jonghyun would tell them about his thoughts and perspectives.

It was truly sad and heartbreaking to find out that he had passed away.

I was just reading some webtoons (basically it's like Korean manga), when I came across some comments on a webtoon stating about Jonghyun passing away. I was very curious so I decided to do some research. When I found out what had happened, it was unbelievable. I had thought that it a joke and that everything would be back to normal, but when I saw a video clip of other idols dressed up in their funeral clothes, visiting Jonghyun, I decided that accept that fact that Jonghyun did pass away.

I was and is still grieving for the loss of Jonghyun but I hope he rests in peace up there. Some people might think that I am just making this post for mere self attention, but Jonghyun is actually my bias from Shinee and he will always be in my heart. Even though Jonghyun might not get a lot of respect compared to the other Shinee members, he is still a legendary figure in the kpop history and he will always be.

He has poured all of his heart into satisfying each and every one of his fans with sincerity and kindness. I hope at least one person reads this and comment on how they think of this. Please, do tell me if Jonghyun's death is affecting you a lot or if it isn't even affecting you at all. I want to see other people's perspectives and opinions.

And a final word to Jonghyun.

I have loved his sweet and charming voice, one that would bring me to ease whenever I myself was having a rough day or needed something to cool me down. He will always, forever be in my heart, including the other Shinee members. I am even sure the Shinee members are suffering more than me, losing someone who's a great friend and member. But their fans that are devoted to them must be suffering the most. They have been supporting them since day one and must have been heartbroken to hear this tragic news. However, I think they will also wish for Jonghyun to be happy up there, with no worries to think about. 

Until then, this has been JungChaeYeon1997.