I was devastated to hear the news yesterday evening. The first thing that came to my mind was 'what!', 'what about the members', 'what about shinee', 'what  about the fans'. But then i saw his suicide letter just this morning and it was selfish for me to think of that. It came to me how hard must he have felt all these years, all of those emotions building inside of him, all the pain he endured. Rest in peace, Kim Jonghyun. You will be missed