I never knew about Kpop until the fateful day I crossed path with Shinee and there was this guy with headphones sang about a girl working in a cafe and his voice was very cool. 

The rest of the members took my heart away and since then, I always have been a shawol. 

No matter how other groups turned successful, winning daesangs, bla, bla....Shinee always won my heart with their trendy performance. 

Their closely knit group, hyungs adoring the maknae, Key being a diva and onew - our precious dubu leader. 

My life was a hell, and I cried everytime myself to sleep and at that moment, what pacified me was Shinee. 

Their songs gave me hope and love. 

I felt full after a long time. 

They continued to perform well and every day , I looked forward even though I'm an international fan who would never be able to see him face to face.

They looked so happy together and they kept going strong and I was so proud of them.

Then the Onew's problem happened, and some how we managed to tackle the antis and in considerate people, but again.....Jonghyun just gave me the biggest shock ever. 

He decided to kill us slowly by killing himself fast. 

You shouldn't have done that, my friend. Every problem has a solution. I wish you could have taken it slowly. 

I don't know what your problem is, but with the likes of your members, it's too much of a not so nice decision. 

Imagine the agony your mother would experience, imagine your sister's tears, imagine your members' heart broken state. Did you think of these things. 

World's biggest punishment for a parent is to participate his/her own son/ daughter's funeral. 

You punished your mother pretty badly Jonghyun....i still can't believe it. 

Are you comfortable now? Is it too dark? Are you scared?

Come back to us, Jonghyun...give us a chance...it's too early to end it. 

Come back....i know it's pointless but come back....