As you may of heard, legend leader of SHINee has passed away due to scuiside. My heart cannot express how much loniless it is feeling at this point due to the news. I woke up with happy news, Taeyang reported he was getting married to his long term girlfriend, hyorin. I was so pleased to read Taeyang's sweet message on Instagram. After reading the message, I look on my explorer plage to see something new, instead of my boring feed. I come across a cute picture of Krystal and Jonghyun in 2009 era. I read the caption which said "Please tell me it's not true." I look in the comments but everyone else is just saying the same thing. 

I finally pull up google and search articles, "SHINee's Jonghyun's scuiside leading into death." I was so shocked I couldn't believe it. My heart quenched, not wanting to believe it. I go under his posts on instagram and there are many messages saying things like "Rest in peace." Only from then on I believed it. 

About a half hour later, there were comments claiming he was still in critical condition. He still had a 1% chance of living and I wanted to hold onto that 1% and believe he had a chance to still live. 

Who doesn't believe in Christmal Miracles? 

Unfortunately that is not the case. Then I heard comments saying Minho fainted hearing the news. My heart broke even more. Let's just be happy God as a special angel up in heaven, we all know Jonghyun will be rocking for God and he'll be chearing for the rest of SHINee even in heaven. He will now be our guardian angel. 

I send my condolences out to everyone that was close with this legend, even fans. May he rest in paradise

April 8th, 1990 - December 18, 2017