I feel extremely guilty to the boy I didn't help.

I was waiting in the line to buy my train ticket when there's that boy i  the other line, he was already in front of the machine but the screen didn't look like it's processing. 

I thought he was asking for help to buy the ticket, thinking there were many people around him that could help him, I just glanced and I go my way on the platform. Just when I was three feet away from the entrance I the boy was asking to people to lend him some money for card deposit because he has no more money. 

My heart clenched in pain, suddenly i feel like crying. I knew I should've turn back and help him but no, instead of turning back I ask the security to help the boy. After thet I half ran and got onto my train. But then my train didn't leave immediately. So I kept looking outside, searching for the boy. Few moments later, I saw him coming out from the backdoor of staffs' room, he ran and he hopped onto the train, the exact train I was on.

I feel extremely guilty. I cried in the train.

I'm so sorry.

(个_个)

[a few people refused to help him, and I choose to ignore him and relay on those people and that hit me hard... The social condition and environment where I living in is fcked up.]

#ifeelliketrash# o(╥﹏╥)o