Hyee it's me ❤

 

Well the thing is, do you guys still remember the 'boy' that I have mentioned long ago. The one who has been crushed on me for five freaking years. Yeah, I did it. I told him the truth, about my real feelings towards him. And he-

 

It's five years already and I'm getting sick of this 'thing'. This year is the worst. From walking back to hostel together, to a few misunderstanding from teachers and giving this giving that, until all the boys of dormitory students keep making fun of me. I had enough and I need to end this . So, throughout this year I keep myself to be patient and wait till the right time and then I will let it all out!

 

All of my acts towards him was clearly what friends do and I never want to give him false hope but he just-urgh I couldn't stand his lovey dovey and all that s behavior towards me. Wtf is he for real? Lovers? Duhh. His possessiveness make me sick. 

 

I always denied his messages and his phone calls and wth he don't need to call me for every ing single day. He don't need to 'miss you miss you' with me because hella for 's sake I never ever miss him.

 

Finally, my Spm has passed and I bravely take another steps. Three days ago he called me as usual but being a I am, ignored it on purpose. And guess what? He sulked. And I took this chance to clear of all this mess to him. 

 

Messages:

Me: do you expect me to pick up the phone when I'm not around? I didn't even notice it rings //liar//

He: *silent*

Me: //fine// if you're reading this I need to talk to you about something. 

He: haa..tell me about that 'something'

Me: alright but before that, are you ready to hear this? 

He: stop asking and just continue

Me: fine!! Firstly, what am I to you? 

He: hmm dunno. You? 

Me: i ask you lahh

He: you're the first one want to talk about 'something'

Me: //this guyy!! // fine if thats what you want. Okay, honestly, all these years i treat you as a friend. 

He: *silent* ouhh okay. So thats what you want to talk about. 

Me: n-no there's more. So, i feel very irritated when you act like you're my boyfriend. You're being too nice.

He: okay, it's okay. After this we're done. You know what, when a boy was in love they're very loyal to their loved ones 

Me: //is he trying to mock me// don't you remember? We've talked about this thing last year. 

He: ouhh the messenger? 

Me: yes.

He: well, thank you for treat me all these years

Me: hmm.. You know what, i want to tell you that I'm not a really nice girl, the ideal one. I loved to curse, badmouth people but people doesn't even know the real me. They just know my appearance. Trust me, I'm not a good person. I'm a . Way cruel than satan. Besides, I'm a kpoppers and like to annoy people with my fangirlings. 

He: i know that. I know the real you. I don't know why but since that accident my love grew stronger to you no matter how bad you are. 

Me: but we need to stop this. You don't deserve someone like me. I'm no good. 

He: i will delete this number. 

Me: delete it if thats make you feel better. Delete it, block me on instagram.

He: plus, make sure i don't see you when the spm results came out. I don't want to see even a glance of you. If you saw me first then run away. 

Me: alright but I'm not a god. I don't create something to happen by my own will. 

He: i know that okay then, bye

 

And it's done. We officially cut this unknown bond between us and guess what I just got haters. They told me that I was just playing with his feeling. But what should I do?  I can't close their mouth. Let them be. People always jump to conclusion without even bother to investigate it first. Let them talk bad. They're low minded.

 

For the future ahead, I really looking forward to it (っ´▽`)っ

 

xoxo, 

Bunnymyeon_